There isn’t anyone who can disappoint me the way you can.
All the nights I gave up, and all the care I gave selflessly have gone unnoticed.
It’s left me bruised. It’s left a hole that I can’t seem to fill.
That no one can fill.
The only thing I can count on is you finding a new way to make me cringe.
You build me up, then send me crashing down.
And never gently.
It’s unyielding and unmerciful.
You’re a fraud.
I don’t live on a diet of bologna, but I can tell you do.
Slimy, slippery and cheap.
It won’t always hurt this much.
It won’t always be this hard.
But today, it does.
Really happy to hear you tune into the show! That’s so awesome, really. Thank you.
Hmmm, what inspires me to write? Well, to be honest; pain.
I started writing in college and ended up taking a lot of different writing courses. At the time I was in a long distance relationship, so most of my work came from the pain of missing him or when he would leave. I didn’t write much that was hopeful or empowering. To keep with the honesty track, I didn’t really start writing again unit this year. I had an experience with someone that I didn’t want to forget, so I wrote about it. I saw it as my way of preserving what I considered a perfect moment and wanted to have a reference to later. It felt really good and I just went from there. I’ve always loved telling stories and offering empowerment to friends, so I decided to channel it into writing. Posting it here took a lot of guts, and I am thankful I have had a positive response. I write everyday, all the time and gather inspiration from anything and everything. For me pain seem to be what I need to work out the most, so that seems to be where most of my writing comes from. I do however, try my best to write positive things that I hope will bring encouragement to someone else. My 'How It Feels' project came out of desperation for a challenge. I noticed I had so many talented friends and I wanted to use their photography in a new way. I wanted to help tell a story and that alone made me write more than ever.
(I have also given myself a 3 or 7 word poem challenge, and today I started to write conversation pieces. Just really whatever I think would be different/make for an interesting story)
What really helps me is just being honest with myself. A lot of the time if I sit down to write and I’m feeling angry, I write from that perspective. If I am feeling lonely, I go from there. I just have to be honest with myself if I am going to try and really dig. I’d say the best thing you can do is to just write. I only post about 50% of what I write. I write constantly and if I posted all of it you’d all get annoyed with me. I keep a small journal, I have several “notes” on my iPhone and as soon as I feel anything coming I grab what I can to write it down. I feel rude a lot of the time if I am with someone, but I tend to forget things. The worst is when I am driving or in the shower. (For the shower I have put a dry erase marker within reach, and write on my tile.) Sometimes it’s just a short phrase or a feeling I start with — but again, it all comes from me being honest with myself. I have a hard time telling people how they make me feel, especially when i am in pain, so this seems like the next best thing.
I hope this was somewhat helpful, and that you start to write. We all have something to share and I’d really love to read what you post.
I can’t really express how hearing I’ve inspired you makes me feel. It’s such a powerful thing and in turn, encourages me. So, thank you.
I hope you share some of your pieces soon.
And when it all came into focus, I was able to eliminate all the gritty noise.
JUST A REMINDER THAT PLATONIC LOVE IS REALLY IMPORTANT AND I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE FRIENDS THAT YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH PLATONICALLY CAUSE THOSE FRIENDSHIPS ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND HONEST OK THANK YOU
Glad to have these people. Actually fuck that, absolutely beyond blessed, grateful, fucking ecstatic to have these people.