There’s been a lot of changes in my life recently — and I’ve been very busy in body and mind. I’ve started a new job that’s exciting (but also comes with a lot of pressure), I found out my best friend in LA is moving to NYC (this is something I’m trying to just avoid thinking about), I’ve been doing my show live on Idobi each week (and I love it so much), and I’ve finally had the strength to tell someone who’s taken advantage of my kindness how I really feel. It was a big step, and it felt really good. With my new job my body is exhausted — but it keeps my mind busy. Then, when I have a free moment to feel anything else, my mind races. I’m sure a lot of you can relate to that. I also feel very disconnected from a friend who moved away. I know, especially as young adults, things change and we have to move our lives in different directions, but — it’s just heartbreaking. It’s sad to feel yourself slipping away from people. People you shared a lot with, or spent a lot of time with — and then feeling like you can’t reach out unless you have a good reason to. It’s one of the things that catches me most when my body can slow down. When I’m driving home at night after a Pure Barre class, or when I finally lay down at night. It’s something I’ve never been good at. Losing a firm grasp on something that means a lot to you. It’s not anyones fault, it’s just what happens. It’s the process. Saying goodbye to people is hard, especially the ones you surrendered a lot to. The ones you felt very close with at one time — and the ones you felt like saw the things that others miss. Sure you do your best to keep in touch, but it’s never the same. Things, shift. It’s just what happens, but I’m not good at it. Anyway, a lot has been going on. Even more than I will share here. But, I feel very happy.
(I didn't want to ask this on twitter bc the boy in question follows me) so this guy who I happen to fancy has been giving me extremely mixed signals. Because of this I haven't told him how I feel. We went to dinner with some friends tonight and I decided that I was done fancying a boy who may or may not like me back. And then this song came on when I was driving home. So could you play "San Dimas High School Football Rules" by the Ataris? P.s. Bill & Ted are the greatest....
hey sara im going back to university tomorrow and i am very very very scared and i basically had no one else to tell than you
I just started a new job so I totally understand how you feel. My best tip is to just smile a lot, haha. Sounds weird but I find smiling a lot just seems to make you feel better — and makes others feel welcomed. Hope it goes well <3
(About your post about serious relationships) It made me smile to read that I know that for the first time in my life I have that. I hope you find that, or it finds you Sara. Love definitely changes everything or at least it did for me :)